Sunday, June 29, 2008
so I'm in shavasana yesterday...
and I'm thinking, even though you're not supposed to be thinking in yoga or if you are thinking you should "recognize the thought and let it go." But I don't. Instead I hang onto the thought as if it's the last thought I'll ever have. That's what always scares me about yoga and "not thinking." I'm always wondering, what if I empty my mind and that's it. You know what I mean? Anyway, I'm in shavasana and I'm thinking that a lot of my life is spent thinking about what I should do to get ready or gear up or prepare for the next thing and I do this because I think if I'm prepared, if I've thought it though then I'm likely to get the best result. But it occurs to me that by doing all this getting ready, gearing up, even picturing an outcome that's good, I'm actually limiting the possibilities. In a way it's like putting the future into a box controlled by the limitations of my mind. Is anyone following this? If you are, my thought is I want to stop doing that and open myself up to possibilities I can't yet imagine...
also I'm blogging at The Ball today about the 4th of July
also I'm blogging at The Ball today about the 4th of July
Friday, June 27, 2008
thoughts on facebook addiction....
my name is Gail and I am a facebookaholic. Seriously, the lure of facebook is stronger than I expected. So I'm trying to figure out if there is some subliminal message that's woven into screen sort of like the previews at movies that used to make you HAVE TO HAVE POPCORN IMMEDIATELY! Has anyone checked this theory? If you have, please let me know... in the meantime, you know where to find me...
In good news: HEALTH Magazine is publishing an essay I wrote about how training for the NYC Half-Marathon after my surgery helped heal me. And my galleys went out late last week which means people are reading my book RIGHT NOW (maybe). But the thought of that makes me feel... excited exposed amazed. Please send good vibes out for me! (I'll do the same for you anytime)
In good news: HEALTH Magazine is publishing an essay I wrote about how training for the NYC Half-Marathon after my surgery helped heal me. And my galleys went out late last week which means people are reading my book RIGHT NOW (maybe). But the thought of that makes me feel... excited exposed amazed. Please send good vibes out for me! (I'll do the same for you anytime)
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I haven't disappeared just been sucked into the facebook universe
Monday, June 23, 2008
my interpretation of "beauty products" I can't live without...
Saturday, June 21, 2008
goodreads is soooo good
I'm probably the last reader on earth to discover goodreads, but if you haven't, check it out immediately. It's like Myspace for book lovers. If I didn't have the husband and a book and another daughter about to launch and my son's Little League games and a new book to write and dishes and laundry... I could spend all day there. Let me know what you think!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
i'm holding a galley of CANCER IS A BITCH in my hand
it's real really real... really and I might cry now...
more thoughts on the galleys... my daughter took one to the pool and my son is sitting on the couch reading one and it feels both empowering and a bit magical to have turned that shitty year into this...
Update: Came down from my shower to son quietly reading and he said, "Mom, this is a page-turner. I can't put it down."
more thoughts on the galleys... my daughter took one to the pool and my son is sitting on the couch reading one and it feels both empowering and a bit magical to have turned that shitty year into this...
Update: Came down from my shower to son quietly reading and he said, "Mom, this is a page-turner. I can't put it down."
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
so I'm getting the feeling the page-proofs post was a bomb
and I don't blame you, really. And now that I'm done done DONE!! I will have more energy to say something more interesting here... that is after my big fat extended family due to arrive tomorrow for middle daughter's graduation leaves... any pre-game advice?
EVENING UPDATE
Just off the phone with "the guy I married" (see below) and he's at his college reunion in New Hampshire and he said he's been pimping my book all day with... the head of the medical school, and an old English prof of mine and someone's wife who works for an NPR affiliate and another who books authors at libraries in Connecticut... you think me telling him I wrote a blog post about his heroism at the Sheryl Crow concert might have motivated him?
EVENING UPDATE
Just off the phone with "the guy I married" (see below) and he's at his college reunion in New Hampshire and he said he's been pimping my book all day with... the head of the medical school, and an old English prof of mine and someone's wife who works for an NPR affiliate and another who books authors at libraries in Connecticut... you think me telling him I wrote a blog post about his heroism at the Sheryl Crow concert might have motivated him?
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
it may seem like I disappeared...
but I haven't. I'm here covered in page proofs and seeing double. Page proofs (for those of you who don't know) are the pages that are type-set but haven't been bound into the book yet. It is the last opportunity for the writer (me in this case) to make any final corrections. Do you know how much pressure that is? Or feels like to someone like me? I'll answer that question since I'm sitting here all alone right now... It's a LOT of pressure. So I've just completed the second round through... line by line... meaning I've been reading this day and night since Thursday and, not to put a plug in for my own book but, it makes me cry every time... I'm not complaining. It's very exciting as well as nerve-racking. It's just that.. is it good enough... could I make it better... did I mean to say backward or backwards, from or than... when will I be able to let go?
Thursday, June 5, 2008
the guy I married...
Last night I went to the Sheryl Crow concert with my husband and I don't know if you know this but Sheryl was diagnosed with breast cancer about a month after I was and she's around my age and once when I was in Tom's Burned Down Cafe on Madeline Island some guy thought I WAS Sheryl Crow (even though we don't really look alike other than large mouths and high cheekbones) but this guy didn't believe me and kept saying, "I understand your need for privacy." And then spent the rest of the night staring and pointing at me. Anyway, our musician friend from Madeline Island knows another musician who knows her manager and he's been trying to get my book to her for possible endorsement. But last night I took my CANCER IS A BITCH bracelet off (see swag picture below) and made a little hole at the top of my business card and tied it on and the plan was we were going to try to throw it on the stage. But instead my husband spotted five women dancing at the edge of the stage and jumped out of his seat with the swag and walked over to them and told them about the tag and the book and one of them put her arm around him and said, "I'm a VIP with the band. I'll make sure she gets it!" And I thought, that's the guy I married... always thinking, helpful, supportive, charming enough to get the swag into that woman's hands...
Sunday, June 1, 2008
your thoughts on marriage
As I wrote Cancer is a Bitch I found myself thinking a lot about marriage. One thing I realized, or I should say continue to realize is that even though my husband and I have been married a looong time, and we love each other and have been faithful, as far as I know, and are committed to making it work, I still don't have clue How To Be Married. Every day is a surprise. Every time I think things are working, something malfunctions. And I wonder, is that just MY marriage? Or is there something about the institution of marriage itself that makes it so challenging? Any thoughts?
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